Here are some good times for today and also some bad times. Most will be bad times so I warn you now turn away and shield your children's eyes from the computer screen.
The thing that I really lose my temper on is when people constantly tell me what to do. Or they try to butt in when its not necessary ( Yes, I know. I did say this. If you really knew me, you would know that I do this often enough). Don't worry I am totally capable of listening and doing as you say. I will only stop listening when you constantly tell me and won't stop telling me what to do. And when you think that you are the boss of me. I can't stand that. So today I was about to tell this one lady to CALM DOWN I HAVE IT UNDER CONTROL! Thank goodness I didn't though. But it has irked me all day. You do not need to make me feel like I am uncapable of doing things. Ok enough of that bad time how about a good time?
Today I registered for institute. As of last night I had no clue what this thing was. So when the parents that I babysit for had to tell me, I felt embarassed. So I went on the lds.org site and registered for institute on Thursday nights. So if anyone wants me to babysit, sorry I can't I'm learning about the D & C.
One more bad thing. I hate feeling like I don't belong. I hate it when all you say to each other are bad names that you think may not hurt one another but really they do. I so dislike this because it makes you feel like a piece of air that is nothing more in this world than a brisk wind that passes by.
Last thing ( I promise). I have a fear of being alone at certain ( ok I don't like being alone at all during any times of the day) times of the day. I don't like it. I can't explain this fear but it is not an extremely fun fear to have. I don't want to ever feel alone in this world. But I know that there is a time when I will need to go out in the world ALONE and without someone constantly by my side. I wish that didn't have to be.
BY THE WAY I KNOW THAT I AM NOT ALONE. I HAVE MY HEAVENLY FATHER. I THINK THAT SOMETIMES HE IS THE ONLY ONE THAT REALLY LISTENS TO ME AND DOESN'T PUSH ME AWAY. SO THAT IS WHY I LOVE HIM SO MUCH.
Ok I am done for tonight. Sorry for this post being depressing or hard to read but that's just how I say it. I am forward about everything. No need to beat around the bush and lie because if someone can answer this next question, by all means go ahead. WHERE DOES BEATING AROUND THE BUSH AND NOT " TELLING IT LIKE IT IS" ( THIS ALSO MEANS LYING) GET YOU IN LIFE?
I have the answer. Do you?
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